Jennifer Aniston and Brad Pitt seemed like the perfect “golden couple.” People fell in love with their courtship, fixating on their relationship as though they were soap opera characters. But unfortunately, their marriage couldn’t stand the test of time following Pitt’s newfound love for Angelina Jolie. Reflecting on her marriage, Aniston opens up about what she would’ve done differently in her relationship with Pitt.

Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston
Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston during 2004 Cannes Film Festival | J. Vespa/WireImage

Jennifer Aniston and Brad Pitt had a ‘beautiful and complicated’ relationship

According to the Friends actress, she and Pitt had a “beautiful and complicated” relationship. She goes on to tell Vanity Fair that all relationships have their ups and downs, regardless of whether or not it’s a romantic relationship, a business relationship, or a friendship. And regardless of how “hurt” and “angry” she felt after their breakup, she tells Vanity Fair that she doesn’t regret her marriage to Pitt.

Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston
Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston | Tony Barson/WireImage

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Aniston tells the magazine in the midst of their divorce, “Am I lonely? Yes. Am I upset? Yes. Am I confused? Yes. Do I have my days when I’ve thrown a little pity party for myself? Absolutely. But I’m also doing really well,” Aniston says. “I’ve got an unbelievable support team, and I’m a tough cookie.… I believe in therapy; I think it’s an incredible tool in educating the self on the self. I feel very strong. I’m really proud of how I’ve conducted myself.”

The actress then compares the process of her divorce to Bambi when he tries to walk for the first time. She tells Vanity Fair, “It’s sort of like Bambi—like you’re trying to learn how to walk. You’re a little awkward; you stumble a little bit. The things you would do with your partner, you don’t do. It’s uncharted territory, but I think it’s good for me to be a solo person right now. You’re forced to re-discover yourself and take it to another level.”

Jennifer Aniston reveals what she would’ve done differently in her marriage to Brad Pitt

Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston
Brad Pitt and Jennifer Aniston | KMazur/WireImage

It’s easy for people to look back at past relationships while reflecting on what they could’ve done differently. Aniston admits there are some things that she would have done differently in her marriage. The actress tells Vanity Fair that she wishes she would’ve gone on more vacations with her ex-husband. She spills,

“There’s a lot I would probably do differently. I’d take more vacations—getting away from work, enjoying each other in different environments. But there was always something preventing it; either he was working, or I was.”

Jennifer Aniston wishes she would’ve put her needs first

Anniston continues, admitting that she put Pitt first too often in the relationship. She tells Vanity Fair,

“I wouldn’t give over so much of myself, which I did at times. It was that thing about being a nurturer; I love taking care of people, and I definitely put his needs before mine sometimes. It’s seamless; somewhere along the way, you sort of lose yourself. You just don’t know when it happens. It’s such an insidious thing. You don’t really see where it started—and where you ended. There’s no one to blame but yourself. I’ve always been that way in relationships, even with my mom. It’s not the healthiest. I feel like I’ve broken the pattern now. I’ll never let myself down like that again. I feel like my sense of self is being strengthened because of it.”