“God, what is wrong with me?”
“I’m such a failure. I’m so sorry. I never wanted my life to turn out like this. The sobbing and tears came from the depths of my heart. I think this was one of the deepest prayers I’ve ever prayed.
Lord, how could this have happened? What’s wrong with me? I wanted to have a beautiful perfect marriage–that’s what Christian’s are supposed to have, aren’t we?
God, I don’t blame You if You don’t give me another chance in marriage.
But if one day, You do give me another chance, I know what I want. God, first I want him to be committed to You. Second, I’d like for him to be trustworthy and for him to trust me… “
My list continued. By the time I finished I had listed 12 traits of my Ideal Husband if God did give me another chance.
At that time, I had never heard of anyone writing a prayer wish list of what they’d like in a future mate. I felt strongly during that prayer time, that God wanted me to write my list.
When I finished my prayer, I wiped the tears from my eyes, tore the page of qualifications from my notebook and placed it in my Bible.
As I made my list that day, I realized what was really important to me in another person was his values and the most important of all was his commitment to God.
Little did I know that around that same time frame, there was a man who had also been composing his qualifications in his special spouse.
Isn’t it awesome to think that God could see me in my own little living room and hear me pouring out my heart to Him and around the same time, He saw this other man sitting at his kitchen table pouring out his heart about who his perfect spouse would be.
I Felt God Told Me to Go to Sunday School
One morning I was praying for our church, the pastor, the leaders, the Sunday Schools classes and it was like all of a sudden God told me I needed to go to Sunday School.
“But God, I don’t know anyone in the singles Sunday School Class. And besides that I don’t even know where they meet.” I know these were lousy excuses but for some reason, I just didn’t want to go.
But God didn’t stop impressing on me that I needed to go. Finally, I gave in and called the church to find out where the singles met.
I Obeyed God
I was nervous as I walked into the room of strangers but I knew I was obeying God. I took my seat at the end of a row so I could scoot out fast.
While the class shared prayer requests, a man shared some of his thoughts about prayer time. His insight into prayer, led to a discussion between the two of us.
After a brief introduction, Brian invited me to sit with him during that church service.
Time seemed to skip a few beats as Brian and I chatted after church. Our chatting continued the following days, weeks, months and years.
A couple of weeks after we met, we discovered that each of us had created our list for our Perfect Mate. While I felt led to write mine during my prayer time, Brian’s Sunday School teacher had suggested that members of his class write what they would like in their future mate. Brian wrote his wish list for his perfect mate. Amazingly, when Brian finished his list, he also had 12 items. The 12 items on his list and the 12 items on my list are matched so well that it’s unbelievable unless you Believe in the supernatural ways which God answers our prayers.
God Brought Us Together
Brian and I knew, without any doubt, God had brought us together. We both had been through agonizing divorces, had been living in different states thousands of miles apart and yet God had brought us together and was giving us a new chance!
And What Happened to the Lists?
Approximately, five months after we met we were married. We folded our lists together and put them into our Bible to remind us of how Mysterious God works sometimes and how He answers our prayers. (That was almost 20 years ago and they are still wonderful reminders to us.)
“I love the Lord because He hears my prayers and answers them. Because He bends down and listens, I will pray as long as I breathe.” PS 116:1-2 (TLB)
Scripture marked (TLB) are taken from The Living Bible ©1971 Used by permission of Tyndale House Publishers, Inc. Wheaton, IL 60187. All rights reserved.